The road to recovery is not always straight

So I had hoped that today’s blog post would be one of good news instead it is a very mixed bag of emotions for me. For those who do not know, I broke my scaphoid a small horseshoe-shaped bone in the wrist almost 2 years ago now and have had a very long and slow recovery since. Any other bone in the wrist would be quick to recover but due to the nature of this one, it can be very complex. The injury occurred during sparring in BJJ. Below is a video of the technique used that did it.


Yesterday I had my final x-ray to examine the hand and final visit to my consultant. The hand has now fused about 50% but not fully. So it still may fuse or it might not. For such a small injury it has been one that has the potential to change the course of my life and the result of this is that might never box/do MMA or handstand again. For someone who had been doing these daily for years, this was a pretty big blow. Below is a picture of where the wrist is at now.


So what has this done for me? Well, a lot as I say it did change the course of my life. When I received the news of what had happened I was left with two choices. To wallow in depression and allow this injury to consume me or to figure out a way to train that would allow me to still work towards my goals and keep me moving. While many of my hobbies became of limits and much of the teaching techniques were out of bounds I had to do something. So that’s when I began to create a community and evolve my teaching. What I did was meet up with many other trainers of various disciplines and learn from them and link them to other like-minded people and to those people I deeply thank you. They know who they are and have kept me focused and sane. As for teaching when you are unable to use your hands while teaching a handstand then your understanding and ability to teach has to rapidly increase.

I have learned a lot from this process and while I still have a long way to go this has been a tough but valuable lesson. If you do receive a bad injury the one thing you need to realise is that this is not the end even if it means you can no longer do the things you truly love there will be options and you will need to figure out a way that will allow you to work towards those goals.

Now I luckily I can now return to some training but as a friend pointed out while I am not fully done this means that I cannot mess around with my rehab or skip steps in my training. Instead, I will have to carry out all of my wrist prep and conditioning with absolute consciousness and make sure every step of the process to do what my body needs not what I want to do. This is a huge thing with athletes when returning to training. Many jump back in head first to their pursuit. I understand this and need to be mindful. So over the following months, I will be spending a huge amount of time on wrist prep and conditioning my wrists to try regaining their use.

To everyone who has helped me on this road thank you while it has been a long winding road you have to just place one foot in front of the other and keep going.